Part Three: Where God Guides, God Provides

My Calling

Step into your calling,
It’s been there all along.
I’ve only been waiting
For you to hear the song.

You are the only one capable
To fulfill the role I’ve given.
So stop running away;
Step up and start livin’.

I long so much for you
To learn and change and grow
Into the person that
Only I truly know.

And now it’s time for
The world to finally see
That when you step into your calling,
You’ll be a reflection of Me.


Part Two: Where God Guides, God Provides

This summer, I experienced one of the best quiet times I have ever had. It was the weekend I was up at Camp Lebanon for a Women’s Leadership. I knew God was calling me back into writing because the writer’s block was lifted, and ideas and passion came flowing out of me. However, I didn’t know how it would all come together.  I was up at camp with an hour and half to myself, surrounded by beauty and tranquility. I wandered around a little bit to a secluded spot on the trail surrounded by trees on one side and the clear, calm lake on the other side. I took a seat and just openly began to cry. I felt in my heart that I was crying out to God to meet me there.

I pulled out my Ipod to play some worship music, and “Mystery” by Phil Wickham came on first:

Here in the Quiet speak to me now
My ears are open to
Your gentle sweet whispering
Break down the door, come inside
Shine down Your bright light
I need a lamp for my feet, I need a lamp for my feet

I want to hear the thunder of who You are
To be captured inside the wonder of who You are
I want to live I want to breathe
To search out Your heart and all of Your mysteries

As I was listening to this song, I realized this was the cry of my heart! I was sobbing, tears streaming down my pale face. I asked, “God, what do You want me to know? Why am I crying it out? What does this mean?”

God quietly whispered, “Trust.”

I cried it out some more. “I want to trust,” I replied.

God said, “Lay your burdens at my feet. Don’t try and figure it out. I have a plan to bring you into your calling and set you free.”

I sat and basked in the sun for a moment. “But God, I feel so powerless!”

God said, “My grace is sufficient, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)

Silence …

God said, “Don’t just say you believe, but actually believe with your thoughts and words. Take every thought captive to make it obedient to me.” (2 Corinthians 10:5)

God continued, “You were running a good race. Who cut in on you and kept you from obeying the truth?” (Galatians 5:7)

I said, “Satan! I rebuke you in Jesus’ name. I rebuke the spirit of shame! I rebuke the spirit of doubt and disbelief! Satan, you tell me I’m not good enough. I am! You tell me no one cares. They do! You tell me I can’t impact people, but I can! I have a story to tell, and I’m going to tell it. You say I am not worthy, but I rebuke you Satan! I am worthy because I am a princess of the King!

“God, I trust you!”

I stood up and cried, “I trust you!”

I said it louder, “I trust you!”

Then, shocking myself, I yelled with my hands lifted high, “I TRUST YOU!”