Follow Your Calling

Are you choosing to follow your calling? Are you choosing to take steps toward it? What has God placed on your heart to do? What stirs you up on the inside? What moves you? Choose not to let the devil talk you out of it. Choose to stop him in his tracks. Choose to embrace your calling and move forward. Choose to trust. Choose purpose.

“When you stand before God, you’ll not be judged according to what you did, but according to what you were called to do.” — John Bevere

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Goodbye Sugar — Hello Freedom

I’m addicted – to sugar.

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I have the sweetest sweet tooth and love a good treat! But my addiction needs to end. I need to say goodbye to sugar and hello to a healthier me. I believe treats are just fine in moderation, but my cravings have gone too far.

I was introduced to the Whole 30 by a friend, and it intrigued me enough to give it a whirl. The best part was that she would do this journey with me!

untitledThe Whole 30 (http://whole30.com) is based off the book It Starts with Food, by Dallas and Melissa Hartwig. It basically says eat nothing for a whole month, and I’ll be healthier. OK, not really, but that’s how I felt!

THE RULES: NO sugar, NO grains, NO legumes, NO dairy, NO cheating, for a whole month! Doing this is supposed to kick the sugar craving all together, and it is also supposed to help boost energy, alleviate aches and pains, or decrease allergies. Many of our symptoms are revealed through the foods we eat. If we eliminate those foods from our diet, the symptoms can disappear. The goal is to eat REAL FOOD.

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I did start thinking I was nuts for wanting to go a whole month on just meat, veggies, and fruit. Could I actually have the will power to do this? Eliminate something out of my life that had controlled me for so long? It was worth a shot.

I had two goals in this process:

  1. Cut the sugar cravings for good.
  2. Re-mineralize my teeth

cure tooth decayI’ve been doing research on how to re-mineralize teeth. Three pregnancies has been rough on my teeth, and a once perfect mouth now has five cavities. I am not willing to fill them if there’s a natural way. I really enjoyed the book, Cure Tooth Decay, by Ramiel Nagel, and many of the guidelines coincide with the Whole 30, so I figured I would do it all at once! I’ll do a post in the near future with more details on re-mineralization. I plan to see a dentist in the next month or so to get a second opinion and see if I’ve made any progress.

The first week of the Whole 30, I barely cooked. My two oldest boys (ages 7 and 5) did this journey with me, as they also have a big sweet tooth. We had a lot of eggs for breakfast and chicken with steamed veggies for lunch or dinner. Simplicity was key for me as I transitioned my eating.

The first 10 days were a hard transition. I’m not a cook — I actually used to despise being in the kitchen. However, I knew I needed to train myself to prepare and cook meals so we wouldn’t get bored or give up. It seemed like everything at the grocery store had some type of sugar or sweetener in it, and it was so defeating. I just wanted some easy-to-grab snacks or meals.


 

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After 10 days, I felt energetic. I didn’t miss caffeine or any other energy booster for that matter. I was sleeping better, and I didn’t have that sluggish feeling early afternoon like I normally do. Between eating real food and going to the chiropractor, I went from someone who could only sleep a couple hours at a time to getting a 7-hour stretch one night! This was the longest I’ve slept since I can remember! My oldest boy had a rough first week and was in the bathroom quite a bit. He was eliminating so many things out of his system. The icky feeling he had went away by day 10, but the elimination continued.

 


 

After 20 days I realized I didn’t miss my almost nightly go-to treat — ice cream. If it wasn’t there for me to look at, I didn’t crave it. I was starting to find fruit sweet enough. I did still look forward to adding back in an occasional treat, but I didn’t miss all the goodies as much as I thought I would. I felt more energy and an overall sense of well-being. The boys were doing great on this plan. When we went somewhere that they were offered a treat or snack, they politely declined. I always made sure to bring along something for them so they didn’t go hungry. They did miss all the treats, but they were troopers.

 


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By day 30, I was really excited to start trying new recipes that called for honey or maple syrup or just a bread-like food. I noticed my face was clearing, and I lost 10 pounds as a byproduct. That was not one of my initial goals — I’m small as it is — but I noticed more definition in my muscles. Overall, I felt better. My workouts seemed easier, the afternoon sluggishness was less frequent, my energy levels were higher, and I was enjoying this new way of eating and cooking!

 


 

The month wasn’t perfect, but I got it done and was proud of my boys for mostly following the rules with me. I now want to incorporate this way of eating into our daily lives with some additional foods and treats in moderation. The boys and I talked about a junk cereal day for them and keeping a pizza night. They were satisfied with those compromises. The boys learned what healthy eating consists of and why it is important. I learned that it’s OK not to know everything if I’m willing to learn. It’s a process. I will take it one step at a time.

 

I will do another couple of posts about my Whole 30 journey. I want to share some of my favorite recipes and meal ideas along with the five important lessons I learned throughout the month. I hope you’ll join me as I tie it all together!

 

 

Quiet the Noise

I had a bad day. Everyone has them, those sneaky moments of weakness that if you don’t control your emotions can lead you down a spiral of negativity. I’ve been going deeper in my faith, learning how to trust, but sometimes I am tested to see how strong I really am. This was one of those days …

Quieting the noise in my head seems near impossible. I can’t even describe what it is. How did it get so loud? How did it get so uncontrollable? Where did I steer wrong? I was going strong. I was having breakthrough after breakthrough. My confidence was soaring. My faith was getting stronger.

It’s almost as if, out of nowhere, a giant blockade ended up in my brain and made everything go black, regressing all my hard work. Then I heard myself start questioning God. Why is this happening? Why does my next breakthrough seem so far away? What do I have to do to get past this? Why this struggle?

Trying to find joy in the midst of my circumstances is overwhelming. I keep telling myself it could be worse and that it won’t matter five years from now, but those reassurances just don’t seem to help. I wallow in my pain when I should take my eyes off my circumstances and look outward. I struggle to find joy when I have so many blessings around me. I so badly want to get back to that place I was at — that place of peace. I want it more than anything right now. I was a better wife, mother, friend, and person. How do I get back there?

I need the noise in my head to go away. I need to quiet the noise so I can hear God’s whisper saying, “Hold on a little longer. I’m right here, and I have big plans for you. I need you to trust me and walk with me, so I can lead you to the promised land. I never said it would be easy, but I am right beside you and won’t let you fall.”

 

The noise in my head is unbearable;

It’s overpowering my thoughts

It won’t quiet down or stop;

It’s making my brain go blank.

 

The noise in my head tells me

I’m not worthy;

The noise in my head says

To quit where I’m at

The noise in my head gives me

Every reason to give up on myself.

 

I need to quiet the noise,

So I can hear God’s gentle whisper

I need to quiet the noise,

So God can work in my life

I need to quiet the noise,

So I can love who I am

And who I was created to be.

 

When I try and quiet it,

The noise just gets louder

The noise screams in my ear,

You’ll never be good enough!

You’ll never amount to anything!

 

The noise tells me not to trust anyone,

That I have to do it on my own

The noise tells me that others don’t care

Or understand What I’m going through,

So why bother them with my feelings

My feelings don’t matter

 

Then I hear the gentle whisper

That says to me I don’t have to be good enough

I don’t have to have it all together

I only have to be willing,

And trust in what is good and right and true.

 

I slowly rise and get back up

I brush the dirt off my legs

I tell the noise it has to stop

Because the only voice I will listen to

Is God’s quiet, gentle whisper of truth.

 

Am I alone in these feelings? I don’t think so. I think others have had this same mind/body struggle. It’s hard to put into words the deep emotions that arise when I let the lies overpower the truth. So I had a bad day, and maybe you did too, but we have to remember that God is good all the time. He wants what is best for us, but we have to keep the noise out. We have to be willing to trust. We have to be willing to listen for the whisper. Because of this, I will brush myself off and get back up. Tomorrow will be a new day, and it will be a good one because I choose for it to be.

Homeschool Mom

I am a home school mom. I chose this path because I feel like I was called to do so. I never thought I would even contemplate that role!

I’m not your typical housewife, you know, the one that’s organized and appears to have everything together. Oh, no, I’m quite the opposite. I have piles of laundry in baskets — clean — wrinkling by the minute. I have an overbearing stack of dishes in the sink — the load in the dishwasher is clean. I have grand ideas for responsibility charts, science experiments and art projects — all waiting to be done. I have folders of recipes on Pinterest still waiting to be made.

I may not be your typical Betty Crocker, picture perfect housewife. But here’s what I am. I am a mom of three very adventurous boys. Outside of God and my husband, they are the loves of my life. I am the best mom for the job. I am their biggest influence. They look up to me. They depend on me. And because of all those things, I am their best teacher. That is why I stepped into the role of home school mom, and I do not regret saying yes to the job no matter where this journey will take me. We will see how this role unfolds …